Favor and disgrace seem alarming. High status greatly afflicts your person. Why are favor and disgrace alarming? Seeking favor is degrading: alarming when it is gotten, alarming when it is lost.
ELM's conditioning before meeting his love S: from the 13th Verse of the 2500+ year old Tao•Te•Ching (the Way•the shape and power•book) I lived in constant striving to attain it and in constant fear of losing it.